Thursday, November 20, 2014

To the Smokers

To ALL who smokes:

Every time you pick up one of your cigarettes, think of this. All those chemicals you're breathing into your lungs are ruining those beautiful lungs that God has given you. You have the choice and choose to kill your lungs, knowing what it's doing on the inside and outside of your body. There are people like me fighting every damn day just to breathe and stay alive. Praying that the lungs God gave us is going to last long enough for us to live a long life. Enough for us to experience things like getting married, having kids, owning a house one day. Most of the time the lungs God gave us give up and start to shut down. Resulting in lung transplants. If we even make it that far. We have NO CHOICE and you're sitting there smoking nasty cigarettes CHOOSING to kill yourself. There are so many smokers these days that when it comes down to me needing new lungs, it could take a long time searching because all the people were smokers and I can't have "smoker" lungs. Who wouldn't want to save their OWN life AND another?

I put this in BOLD for you. Take this in consideration. You're not only killing yourself but you're basically killing us as well by not helping us live. That's how I see it. All of us who have Cystic Fibrosis, agree that smokers are idiots. You're ruining your lungs. Quit before you die and we die as well because we won't have new lungs. At least you can actually breathe and do things we can't. Be happy that you can breathe and don't struggle every damn day to take a breath. Please... Quit smoking before it's too late.


By: Jocelyn Nicole Green

Hope

Words that have given me hope:

It's more like a bible verse that has given me hope. When I feel down or depressed, I try to remember this bible verse because it's so true and it makes me feel better.

Jeremiah 29:11

{11} "For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." (NIV version)

{11} "I have it all planned out; plans to take care of you, not abandon you, plans to give you the future you hope for." (The Message version)

I like the rest of it too. Verses 11-14 are all really great. But it's always verse 11 that is the best out of all of them.

Jeremiah 29:12-14

{12} "Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will listen to you. {13} You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart." {14} "I will be found by you," declares the Lord, "and will bring you back from captivity." (NIV version)

{12} "When you call on me, when you come and pray to me, I'll listen. {13} When you come looking for me, you'll find me. {14} Yes, when you get serious about finding me and want it more than anything else, I'll make sure you won't be disappointed." (The Message version) 

Knowing that God has a plan for me, it's all really great. But finding out what that plan is, is hard to figure out. I guess we're not meant to know what God's great plan for us is. Sometimes I wonder why am I on this earth? Why do I have Cystic Fibrosis? It's all God's plan for me. I just don't know what it is. 

It really bugs me to not know why I'm here. I want to know why I'm here on this earth and why I have Cystic Fibrosis. Why all these things have happened to me and why I have to go through so much misery. I'm hoping one day I can find happiness in all this. Maybe I'm not meant to be happy. The reason I can't be happy is because I'm constantly fighting for my life. Constantly trying to stay alive and healthy. But I guess God has a plan for me and I just need to be patient. When I'm feeling down, those are the words that bring me hope. That keep me going every day.

"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."

By: 

Jocelyn Nicole Green

Wednesday, November 19, 2014

If that's not Love, then what is?

You know when you found the one when you can be yourself even if it's your crazy self. Your special someone will love you anyway. You know when you found them when they'll stick by you no matter what. I used to think I wouldn't find anybody that would put up with my craziness or stick by me through doctor appointments or hospital visits. My husband hates hospitals but he was willing to overcome his fear just for me. The first time I went into the hospital while we were dating, I honestly thought he'd run away. But he was there every morning after work. Every single day, he'd be there to give me kisses and hold me. He didn't have to be there. He wanted to be there. If that's not love, then what is?

When you've found the right one, they'll do anything or be anything for you. I know Ryan will do absolutely anything for me. Even drop everything and just leave for a few days like when we went to North Carolina. Long story short, I was having some emotional problems and needed my best friend so we left in the middle of the night and spent a few days with her. I was going to go by myself but he wanted to go with me so he called into work for a few days. Things like that make me love him even more. If that's not love, then what is?


You know when you've found the right one when after a fight, you instantly apologize to one another and then you have make-up sex. lol Or if you're dating then make-up make-out session. lol I know me and Ryan's fights are mostly my fault and me doubting our relationship. He always reminds me it's going to be hard and the first year of marriage is always the hardest. Then he tells me we're almost there. Like November 2nd is our 6 months of being married so we're halfway there. If that's not love, then what is?

You know when you've found the right one when you can be silly and stupid with each other. Me and Ryan always burp and fart in front of each other. We even tell each other when we have to poop. lol Crazy I know but it's kind of fun. At least we're comfortable with each other like that. We always laugh at each other and mess with one another. I have the most fun with him when we're both slap happy. We get so silly and crazy with one another, it's great. I have a lot of fun with him. If that's not love, then what is?

If none of this is love, then what is? What else could you possibly ask for? I got a caring, loving, understanding, patient, passionate, affectionate, and fun husband. What else do I need? Nothing<3

A Poem for You, my Precious Grampa

*Dedicated to: Gerald Wayne Harper*

I no longer cry myself to sleep because I know that you're in heaven.

 I may get say every month but I know that you're ok.

 Come June 20th of every year, I may get sad but I will rejoice. 

Because you're in heaven and you're safe from pain.

 I may miss you so berry much but you're with the Lord and I'm berry happy.

 I love you Grampa and I miss you but you're free, happy, and alive in heaven with our precious Father and I'm so glad that you're free of pain.

-Always&Forever-

By:
Jocelyn Nicole Green

Tuesday, November 18, 2014

My Husband

My husband is:


  • Caring. He cares about me a lot. He cares whether I take care of myself or I don't. He's always trying to help me to remember to do things. And I really do appreciate it even though it may not seem like that to him. Although I probably wouldn't admit it to him, it is helpful at times. I do forget sometimes and I don't like to admit that I do. He probably already knows that. I love how he's always trying to educate himself on things. Asking me what this or that is. He cares about my health and he's trying to keep me alive for as long as possible. He cares about me so much.
  • Understanding. Nobody ever understands how frustrating it is trying to remember to do everything with having CF and actually doing it. It's a pain in the ass. Only the people closest to me really know what I go through. And even then, not always everything. Ryan has seen me go through a lot since we've been together and I feel like he somewhat understands. He's always there for me and trying to understand how I feel.
  •  Loving. Where to begin there...? He told me 5 days after we started dating that he loved me. His love for me is like so overwhelming to me. I never knew someone could have so much love for one person. One person! That's a lot of love! I could never quite grasp the love that he has for me. It's just so overpowering. It definitely overpowers mine. He loves me more than any other guy has ever loved me before. I feel like he loves me more than anybody else in the whole entire world. And I love him for that. He loves me so much and I just don't get how. I will probably never understand how he loves me so much.
  • Passionate and Affectionate. Those two go together. He's passionate and affectionate in every way possible. He's passionate about us and he shows affection all the time. He's constantly near me which may bother me at times but honestly I love it. I love it that he likes to be around me all the time. Yes, I sometimes need space but that's just every girl. Honestly, I love that he wants to be around me all the time. Because I hate being alone. And it just shows that he loves me very much and it shows me how special I am to him. When we were dating, he'd always like to be close to me every time we were together. He still likes to be close to me. I love how he's always wanting to be close and cuddling.  I love being close to him. I feel like I never get close enough like we could somehow mold our bodies together. He's so affectionate and I love it. It makes me feel wanted all the time. I love being in his arms.
  • Devoted. He is definitely devoted to our marriage. He sure doesn't want to let me go. He will fight to keep me in any way possible. He is devoted to us and our marriage and keeping us together. Trust me, I've tried a few times in the past to leave. But he is so determined to make this work, to make our marriage work. It just gets frustrating at times but in the end, I am totally devoted to him too. 

I am totally 100% in love with my husband. I love all the little things he does for me and all the big things he does for me. I love how he will try to do anything to make me happy. He will always have my heart. I'm pretty sure he captured my heart the moment he asked me out on our first date. Because by the end of that night, I was so eager to start dating him. I wanted this man and I wanted him all to myself.  I had found the man I had been looking for and I wasn't going to let him go. I'm stupid to have tried to let him go since we've been married. He has been nothing but loving and caring and has always been there for me. He may not be perfect but hey, no man is. I know I'm not perfect and he still loves me after everything I've put him through. But at the end of each day(or night), I know he will always love me no matter what. And I love him so very much and I don't ever want to lose him. I need him and I know he needs me too. I'm nothing without him. He completes me. He is my whole world and nothing will get in the way of our marriage. Nobody. When we go out together, I don't pay attention to anybody else or what other people think. It's like nobody else exists and it's just us. Like the rest of the world disappears and nobody else matters. It's just us and that's all that matters. I love him and I can't tell him that enough. I love telling him that I love him and I love showing him how much I love him. I just wish there were more words to tell him how much I really do love him and how much I want to be with him for rest of my life. He's the only one for me. He's my husband and I love him SO much.

Wednesday, November 12, 2014

Shakespeare

Introduction:
To be or not to be. That is the real question. Is it better to live or to die? This is one of the best-known lines of  William Shakespeare in his play Hamlet. Probably one of the best-known lines in all drama and literature. 

Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer
The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune,
Or to take arms against a sea of troubles,
And by opposing end them? To die: to sleep;
No more; and by a sleep to say we end
The heart-ache and the thousand natural shocks
That flesh is heir to, 'tis a consummation
Devoutly to be wish'd. To die, to sleep;
To sleep: perchance to dream: ay, there's the rub;
For in that sleep of death what dreams may come
When we have shuffled off this mortal coil,
Must give us pause: there's the respect
That makes calamity of so long life;
For who would bear the whips and scorns of time,
The oppressor's wrong, the proud man's contumely,
The pangs of despised love, the law's delay,
The insolence of office and the spurns
That patient merit of the unworthy takes,
When he himself might his quietus make
With a bare bodkin? who would fardels bear,
To grunt and sweat under a weary life,
But that the dread of something after death,
The undiscover'd country from whose bourn
No traveller returns, puzzles the will
And makes us rather bear those ills we have
Than fly to others that we know not of?
Thus conscience does make cowards of us all;
And thus the native hue of resolution
Is sicklied o'er with the pale cast of thought,
And enterprises of great pith and moment
With this regard their currents turn awry,
And lose the name of action.--Soft you now!
The fair Ophelia! Nymph, in thy orisons
Be all my sins remember'd.
*copied from phrases.org.uk*

Hamlet is comparing life to death. He's comparing the pain of life to the fear and uncertainty to death. Life is hard and death seems to be the answer to some people. But nobody actually wants to die. People fear death because that's the end of their life and there's no coming back. Once you're dead, you're dead. Your heart has stopped beating and your body has shut down. Then your soul is either going to heaven or hell. Simple as that. Hamlet sees life as inevitable (the sea of troubles - the slings and arrows - the heart-ache - the thousand natural shocks) and death as possible damnation of suicide. 

Hamlet is wondering if death is the answer for him for although he's not happy with his life, he has the fear of what death will bring him. He has no clue whether or not his soul will go to heaven or hell. He's wondering if death will be an experience worse than life. As in his soul will go down to the fiery pits of hell. There's no coming back from death. He knows that suicide is a one-way ticket. He fears that death will be much worse than life. 
"Life is bad, but death might be worse."

My thoughts:

Here's the thing. Hamlet shouldn't commit suicide. Simple as that. Yes, life may get you down every once in a while and yes, you may be unhappy with your life. But that doesn't mean you have to end your life. Like I've said before, death is permanent.  There's no coming back from being dead. Either you're dead or you're alive. Hamlet is an idiot to think of such a thing. If you commit suicide, you go to hell. That's killing yourself, basically like murdering yourself. Murderers don't deserve to go to heaven. Sorry to be so straight forward but it's the truth.

Now I probably have this all wrong and I interpreted this all wrong but this is what I got out of it.

Final Conclusion:

Hamlet should not commit suicide for if he does, his soul will go down to the fiery pits of hell and there is no turning back. Committing suicide is NOT the answer for we are put on this earth for a reason and God has a purpose for all of us. We may not know right away our purpose, but we will figure it out eventually. Our lives matter. We all have a purpose.
To be or not to be. That is the real question. Is it better to live or to die?

By: Jocelyn Nicole Green

Defining Love

How does one define love?

Love is an intense feeling of deep affection. It can also be a deep romantic or sexual attachment to someone. 

I think there are 3 types of love:

1. A romantic kind of love that you have for a boyfriend/girlfriend or a husband/wife. It's an unfathomable  passion that you can't explain. When your heart beats fast everytime they look at you. When you get butterflies everytime they kiss you. When you look into each other's eyes and you just know that you love each other even though you haven't said it yet. Especially when you want to express that love for them, other than the kisses and telling them you love them. That's when you want to make that sexual connection with them.  That's the most important part of a MARRIAGE.

2. A special kind of love between friends. It's a dispassionate, virtuous love. It expresses your loyalty to them. To let them know that you are always there for them no matter what. To let them know that they can tell you anything and everything without judgement or criticism. That they can trust you with anything and everything they say to you or do and you won't tell anybody unless it's something that will harm them. To love them no matter what they do or what they are going through. Just let them know you're always there whenever needed.

3. A type of love and affection expressed for parents and siblings or children. It is a natural affection that just comes with having a family. It is known to express mere acceptance or putting up with situations. Just to let them know that they are family and no matter how many times you hurt them or they hurt you, you will always love them. Like they say, you hurt the ones you love the most.

-Love is a deep affection you have for others-

By: Jocelyn Nicole Green